Well folks, I’m on week two of a dreadful cold that seems to be in love with my body. Just as I think it’s about to leave, it manifests in some other hideous mutation. My energy is sapped, and the only activity I have been engaged in is what Martha Beck calls “multi-shirking”: feeling guilty about the various tasks I am not doing. I’ve also felt barely present, walking in a fog, unable to even identify how I’m feeling (other than ill). On Friday, I decided I had had enough, and I better start using some of my coaching tools on myself before the entire weekend was lost to this haze of non-existence. Possibly you too have experienced this type of drained, foggy state, or another type of odd state that you can’t quite identify. I hope the following practice will help you when you can’t quite figure out what’s wrong and what you need.
Drawing Your Energy Body
I’m not entirely sure of where I learned this – I think it was adapted from an exercise by the awesome Abigail Steidley of Anamsong – the basic premise is to draw your energy body. For those of you not new-agey enough to know what I mean by that; there is a theory that our bodies naturally contain energy, and that when well, it flows freely from the ground to “source” out of the top of the head. I used to find this ridiculous, but now that I’ve started casually chatting about “spirit guides” and meeting mediums, this seems like no big deal. If it’s a new idea for you, I invite you to just try it for yourself and see what happens.
The idea is this – you draw a rough outline of your body, and then intuitively draw how the energy is flowing through your body. I use oil pastels to do this, since they are fun, but any colored medium will work. On Friday, my energy body looked like this:
(Clearly, no drawing or photographic ability is required for this practice.)
When I looked at this, it felt like my intuition was delivering a very clear message – my energy was scattered and draining out of me. I needed to get it back, contained within myself. I’ve found that when I do this and ask myself what I need to do in order to remedy my out of balance energy situation, I get a clear answer. Mine, in this case, was surprising to me: clean my house, go grocery shopping, cook, cancel all plans, ground myself with healing music. (I love “Musical Acupuncture” by Janalea Hoffman, and, if you can deal with Sanskrit, the album “Anand” by Snatam Kaur.) I invite you try this for yourself, and would love to hear what your intuition says.